Well wouldn’t you know, I decided to have a smoke on a Wednesday. Just because I’ve stopped drinking I think I can do whatever I like whenever I like. Is this my reward or am I just punishing myself subconsciously
I’m now feeling anxious again, that “nervous/scared” feeling in my stomach, and the eyes, what is that feeling around the eyes?
Is it because I feel this roadblock in my day when I have several exciting, interesting tasks ahead along with more mundane admin type tasks. Stops me in my track,
How to prioritise perhaps
Apart form that how am I really feeling.
Still flat is probably the best word.
I feel different, my life feels different.
The environment I’m in feels different
I was listening to this video this morning
The Psychology of Self-Transformation
I can’t remember the spot I wanted to save but the link above starts at “The Thought”
Change, transformation. Can it be this sudden.
Have I actually changed, or in the process of actually changing.
More of a conscious effort to exercise, the chin up bar.
Stop smoking weed? Yes no, would I be writing this if I didn’t
Does it help to explore my psyche and document the thoughts, like this. How do I write down to articulate the way life feels now?
Maslow, self actually, life mission
From 8 minutes.
Another video about
The Psychology of Self-Realization