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9:57 PM First time in a long time I have the time  It’s been 12 months of self loathing, gradual discovery and resetting the balance.  Was there balance before, maybe not, do I have the ability to balance myself.  I’ve written that this is definitely the way forward, just do this.  It’s about writing, anyone …

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Freedom is freedom from influence How others influence and feed your reality, being, ego and your presence in the world who you are.   How others make who you are and your reactions Freedom is  not reacting  Freedom is accepting your death  Freedom is not being controlled by your attention  Freedom is pure acceptance of everything …

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Why are we here? There is no reason why an answer to that question should even exist. We just create the idea there needs to be an answer to that question. Of course there needs to be an answer. every question must be answered for us to truly understand ourself.  if consciousness is the awareness …

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Life has a face and its you.   Hello.  It’s nice to finally make your acquaintance.  I am You. And you must be Me.  It’s about time we met properly.  It’s so nice to finally put a name to the face.   We really need to have this  chat.  I know there’s a lot going on at …

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“You didn’t tell me!” After I told her yesterday that I’m putting money aside each month from my pay, and I overlooked telling her that the money would be used for My 50th party. Money money I’m eating a lot of chocolate I’m smoking the pain away I’m uncomfortable receiving compliments I searched “can I …

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Reminder to jot down what I was thinking in the shower last night, about not writing for a couple days but also thinking how even when nothing to write then just these words even it’s all writing. Once again, I have smoked pot and now feel inclined to write. It’s a trigger, an association which …

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17:26  This journaling is fun, helpful. How helpful, not sure yet, maybe it is becoming more helpful as I do it, write it, say it. That little voice in the head, saying each word, can ‘type fast enough  and you never want to say it out aloud as it is too confronting. My thoughts my …

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Monday 21st September  I’d never given Tony Robbins a second of time except talking to a friend about him, when it came up. A few issues that had come up at home recently had seen me dive deeper into self-paced mindfulness especially YouTube videos and an audiobook about psychedelics, mind, and consciousness, “How to change …

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sick of the shit i see on my feed  sick of the shit in the paper i read   the news  the tv  the billboard  i plead  does anyone listen  does anyone need  the endless dribble  will the streets always bleed  the hatred, the lies  the money, the power  all for the few  in the ivory tower  the …

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