anxiety

Freedom is freedom from influence How others influence and feed your reality, being, ego and your presence in the world who you are.   How others make who you are and your reactions Freedom is  not reacting  Freedom is accepting your death  Freedom is not being controlled by your attention  Freedom is pure acceptance of everything …

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Everything you know including the people you love and the people you hate, are all a memory.  Your experience and understanding of everything that you know is a memory.   The only thing that is real and true is now.  The future is your expectation.   The past is your history.   The present and now is all …

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Life has a face and its you.   Hello.  It’s nice to finally make your acquaintance.  I am You. And you must be Me.  It’s about time we met properly.  It’s so nice to finally put a name to the face.   We really need to have this  chat.  I know there’s a lot going on at …

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It’s been a while, probably because I haven’t been smoking much and when I do I go into a hole. This is the first day I’ve felt ok after ingesting pot. One obvious reason comes to mind, but to get sidetracked by that now would make me lose the 10 other tracks, need to type …

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It’s easy to latch on to the revolving door of thoughts that take up the space in our head. The things that are troubling us, the things that impact us, how influences can create a perceived negative reaction or emotion then we start to feel sorry for ourselves because I shouldn’t be feeling this way. …

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11am, feeling ok, still a bit anxious. The feeling of the environment seems to be settling down a bit. It has been 8 days now since the incident, and 7 days since I made conscious decision to stop drinking alcohol. A couple of chin-ups here and there already today, but still a way off before …

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The thoughts buzzing around my head, constantly thinking and feeling the environment, home, the car. In the bathroom, I know I have to write this down, then I think is this a book? It can be. This is what will carry me. It’s helping, slowly, I can feel it. Making a conscious decision about this …

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Well wouldn’t you know, I decided to have a smoke on a Wednesday. Just because I’ve stopped drinking I think I can do whatever I like whenever I like. Is this my reward or am I just punishing myself subconsciously I’m now feeling anxious again, that “nervous/scared” feeling in my stomach, and the eyes, what …

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Monday 21st September  I’d never given Tony Robbins a second of time except talking to a friend about him, when it came up. A few issues that had come up at home recently had seen me dive deeper into self-paced mindfulness especially YouTube videos and an audiobook about psychedelics, mind, and consciousness, “How to change …

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