Going back to the idea of structure, and along with that is the idea of “where do I fit in?” or “how do I fit in”. there is this broader understanding that we fit in a hierarchy. I wrote this note in evernote earlier this evening Hierarchy structure and casual conversation. How “who” we are …
I haven’t forgotten about you How did it get like this Relapse. Anger Impulse However then control Review the situation Choose not to relax, I’m stronger than that It’s not about more strength and power to “win” it’s about being mentally stronger to choose not to react a certain way. “I am stronger than that.”
Yep, one smoke. Is it nervousness? That feeling of despair and lost The feeling of failing with nothing to show Materialistic, yes it’s true, nothing to show, but one can still choose to have their pride intact. If learning is genuinely taking place and remorse can be felt. Effort in doing what can be done …
If we were living in a simulation would the simulation give clues that we were or is our collective consciousness influencing the simulation if indeed we were living in a simulation.
Ok, just had a smoke. First time all week, maybe later in the day This time, 2pm, first time an early afternoon smoke for a long time. Why? No excuse. It was there. Was I drawn to it because of the email I wrote for work. Are my expectations too high? What does it mean …
Reflection of the letter Made me feel better writing it down, whether it was too much is beside the point, it was part of the process . that’s how I interpreted it and I responded to it in a way that it came out. So I’ve watched the matrix last couple nights. Quotes “There is …
17:26 This journaling is fun, helpful. How helpful, not sure yet, maybe it is becoming more helpful as I do it, write it, say it. That little voice in the head, saying each word, can ‘type fast enough and you never want to say it out aloud as it is too confronting. My thoughts my …
11am, feeling ok, still a bit anxious. The feeling of the environment seems to be settling down a bit. It has been 8 days now since the incident, and 7 days since I made conscious decision to stop drinking alcohol. A couple of chin-ups here and there already today, but still a way off before …
The thoughts buzzing around my head, constantly thinking and feeling the environment, home, the car. In the bathroom, I know I have to write this down, then I think is this a book? It can be. This is what will carry me. It’s helping, slowly, I can feel it. Making a conscious decision about this …
Well wouldn’t you know, I decided to have a smoke on a Wednesday. Just because I’ve stopped drinking I think I can do whatever I like whenever I like. Is this my reward or am I just punishing myself subconsciously I’m now feeling anxious again, that “nervous/scared” feeling in my stomach, and the eyes, what …
Monday 21st September I’d never given Tony Robbins a second of time except talking to a friend about him, when it came up. A few issues that had come up at home recently had seen me dive deeper into self-paced mindfulness especially YouTube videos and an audiobook about psychedelics, mind, and consciousness, “How to change …
John Striker from New South Wales’ Lake Macquarie district, recently thanked “everyone” for the birthday wishes. Problem is, not everyone actually wished him happy birthday. The social media post which read “Thanks everyone for the birthday wishes, feeling blessed for all the love” was actually incorrect. It was only a small number of his friends …
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With the closure of Uluru fast approaching, the rush has started to climb Australia’s most famous, and favourite natural wonder. As the queue stretched for hundreds of metres, it was duly noted that most of the people lining up where indeed white, or from another country. When asked if they thought it was disrespectful, they …
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sick of the shit i see on my feed sick of the shit in the paper i read the news the tv the billboard i plead does anyone listen does anyone need the endless dribble will the streets always bleed the hatred, the lies the money, the power all for the few in the ivory tower the …
