The realisation that what we had, even though it was obviously painful to you so much that you had to let it go
Probably the closest to death that feeling of the end. It will sink in more it hasn’t sunk in and it will no doubt impact.
To feel the pain is to think of the future what can it look like
There is the pain to be aware of what could happen but thinking it as reality, a certainty,
Its quite intense.
Paralyzing in a way