separation

Procrastination

9:57 PM First time in a long time I have the time  It’s been 12 months of self loathing, gradual discovery and resetting the balance.  Was there balance before, maybe not, do I have the ability to balance myself.  I’ve written that this is definitely the way forward, just do this.  It’s about writing, anyone …

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My inner voice is my ego

“You didn’t tell me!” After I told her yesterday that I’m putting money aside each month from my pay, and I overlooked telling her that the money would be used for My 50th party. Money money I’m eating a lot of chocolate I’m smoking the pain away I’m uncomfortable receiving compliments I searched “can I …

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So the universe will end and this will cease to exist

I’ve just had a bit of a serious “writer’s rant” and now I’m back in my pjs and farting, well not farting but when I do, I will let it out, not that I hold it back at home in front of any immediate family, but when thinking of the writing I’ve just been doing …

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Back from a break

Going from lying on the bed to a comment about not doing anything again, to offering to help to find a pillow case to being told I’ve never changed the sheets on the beds. I don’t know if it was really feasible to carry on as “per normal”.  emotions arose, mud slinging occurred, feeling being …

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From death to the end of the universe via a separation

It is about the jealousy; I really have no reason to be jealous. It does feel, and sure the oil I just had would be exacerbating the situation, but lets deal with the suspicions. It’s the anxiety caused by the suspicions, the thoughts of her doing that. LOOK AT ME. LET IT GO The end …

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