separation

9:57 PM First time in a long time I have the time  It’s been 12 months of self loathing, gradual discovery and resetting the balance.  Was there balance before, maybe not, do I have the ability to balance myself.  I’ve written that this is definitely the way forward, just do this.  It’s about writing, anyone …

Procrastination Read More »

Life has a face and its you.   Hello.  It’s nice to finally make your acquaintance.  I am You. And you must be Me.  It’s about time we met properly.  It’s so nice to finally put a name to the face.   We really need to have this  chat.  I know there’s a lot going on at …

You and Me Read More »

“You didn’t tell me!” After I told her yesterday that I’m putting money aside each month from my pay, and I overlooked telling her that the money would be used for My 50th party. Money money I’m eating a lot of chocolate I’m smoking the pain away I’m uncomfortable receiving compliments I searched “can I …

My inner voice is my ego Read More »

I’ve just had a bit of a serious “writer’s rant” and now I’m back in my pjs and farting, well not farting but when I do, I will let it out, not that I hold it back at home in front of any immediate family, but when thinking of the writing I’ve just been doing …

So the universe will end and this will cease to exist Read More »

It’s been a while, probably because I haven’t been smoking much and when I do I go into a hole. This is the first day I’ve felt ok after ingesting pot. One obvious reason comes to mind, but to get sidetracked by that now would make me lose the 10 other tracks, need to type …

Save on Christmas Gifts Read More »

The realisation that what we had, even though it was obviously painful to you so much that you had to let it go    Probably the closest to death that feeling of the end. It will sink in more it hasn’t sunk in and it will no doubt impact. To feel the pain is to think …

what causes the pain Read More »

Going from lying on the bed to a comment about not doing anything again, to offering to help to find a pillow case to being told I’ve never changed the sheets on the beds. I don’t know if it was really feasible to carry on as “per normal”.  emotions arose, mud slinging occurred, feeling being …

Back from a break Read More »

It is about the jealousy; I really have no reason to be jealous. It does feel, and sure the oil I just had would be exacerbating the situation, but lets deal with the suspicions. It’s the anxiety caused by the suspicions, the thoughts of her doing that. LOOK AT ME. LET IT GO The end …

From death to the end of the universe via a separation Read More »