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9:57 PM First time in a long time I have the time  It’s been 12 months of self loathing, gradual discovery and resetting the balance.  Was there balance before, maybe not, do I have the ability to balance myself.  I’ve written that this is definitely the way forward, just do this.  It’s about writing, anyone …

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Freedom is freedom from influence How others influence and feed your reality, being, ego and your presence in the world who you are.   How others make who you are and your reactions Freedom is  not reacting  Freedom is accepting your death  Freedom is not being controlled by your attention  Freedom is pure acceptance of everything …

Everything looks good in the brochure   Read More »

Everything you know including the people you love and the people you hate, are all a memory.  Your experience and understanding of everything that you know is a memory.   The only thing that is real and true is now.  The future is your expectation.   The past is your history.   The present and now is all …

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Why are we here? There is no reason why an answer to that question should even exist. We just create the idea there needs to be an answer to that question. Of course there needs to be an answer. every question must be answered for us to truly understand ourself.  if consciousness is the awareness …

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Life has a face and its you.   Hello.  It’s nice to finally make your acquaintance.  I am You. And you must be Me.  It’s about time we met properly.  It’s so nice to finally put a name to the face.   We really need to have this  chat.  I know there’s a lot going on at …

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“You didn’t tell me!” After I told her yesterday that I’m putting money aside each month from my pay, and I overlooked telling her that the money would be used for My 50th party. Money money I’m eating a lot of chocolate I’m smoking the pain away I’m uncomfortable receiving compliments I searched “can I …

My inner voice is my ego Read More »

I’ve just had a bit of a serious “writer’s rant” and now I’m back in my pjs and farting, well not farting but when I do, I will let it out, not that I hold it back at home in front of any immediate family, but when thinking of the writing I’ve just been doing …

So the universe will end and this will cease to exist Read More »

It’s been a while, probably because I haven’t been smoking much and when I do I go into a hole. This is the first day I’ve felt ok after ingesting pot. One obvious reason comes to mind, but to get sidetracked by that now would make me lose the 10 other tracks, need to type …

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The realisation that what we had, even though it was obviously painful to you so much that you had to let it go    Probably the closest to death that feeling of the end. It will sink in more it hasn’t sunk in and it will no doubt impact. To feel the pain is to think …

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Going from lying on the bed to a comment about not doing anything again, to offering to help to find a pillow case to being told I’ve never changed the sheets on the beds. I don’t know if it was really feasible to carry on as “per normal”.  emotions arose, mud slinging occurred, feeling being …

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It is about the jealousy; I really have no reason to be jealous. It does feel, and sure the oil I just had would be exacerbating the situation, but lets deal with the suspicions. It’s the anxiety caused by the suspicions, the thoughts of her doing that. LOOK AT ME. LET IT GO The end …

From death to the end of the universe via a separation Read More »

We are collectively what’s called life. And we have been put in charge to continue or destroy. Maybe it is our destiny to destroy life forever. like literally forever. The visual of time and the universe. What do people “see” how do they visualise death the infinite of death Its not about us its about …

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Reminder to jot down what I was thinking in the shower last night, about not writing for a couple days but also thinking how even when nothing to write then just these words even it’s all writing. Once again, I have smoked pot and now feel inclined to write. It’s a trigger, an association which …

Specify the objectives of the writing Read More »

It’s easy to latch on to the revolving door of thoughts that take up the space in our head. The things that are troubling us, the things that impact us, how influences can create a perceived negative reaction or emotion then we start to feel sorry for ourselves because I shouldn’t be feeling this way. …

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That’s right, these talks from Roger Penrose and Leonard Susskind about the beginning of the universe and the end of universe are fascinating, and in a way comforting. The finite nature of our existence is real. The idea that some things are infinite, mostly in mathematics, the singularity that Penrose and Susskind refer to and …

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